I think, having gone to TVXQ’s first concert as two in Seoul had been a lot of help. I have not told this to anyone, but when Yunho and Changmin had their little speech, kind of telling us that “the two of them” were there, and when I held up those signs, telling them thank you for protecting and telling them I’d always be by their side, I had let go.
I don’t want anyone to make a big deal out of this message, because it isn’t, it isn’t a big deal. It’s not like I’m not crying or anything…this isn’t supposed to be emotional. Hahaha. But now that the lawsuit is finally over and there’s somewhat of a closure, I would just like to say a few things. I’ve always said that I didn’t want to remember the boys as people who broke my heart, that’s why I’d always wish some miracle would happen and they’d get back performing as five. But I realized that even if they split up, even if they’re JYJ and TVXQ now, I don’t have to remember them with sad memories.
I would…will always look back at the 5 of them fondly. Because seeing them, hearing them, feeling them through songs and performances and interviews and shows and whatnot was amazing…even if for just a limited while. I am thankful to have been by their side.
I owe the five of them friends, experiences and inspiration. I wouldn’t pretend this is just nothing because honestly, I would not be here…I would not be me if it weren’t for them. No matter what more I go through in life, having been with the five of them would be one of the happiest periods in my life. I, perhaps, would never understand why they did what they did, why they chose the paths they did, but I guess they owe me nothing.
Okay maybe a goodbye buttttttt. HAHAHA
Thank you. I look forward to seeing you in the future, Choikang Changmin and Uknow Yunho. Also the three, JYJ’s Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu. :)